I wonder what drives many people to write a blog, much less write anything at all. Is it to quench the fundamental need to express ones thoughts and share them with others? To scatter ones ideas into the empty abyss of the internet? Is it the need to be heard and in some small way validated through feedback offered by others? To be both seen and heard?

I guess to some it is a calling such as certain individual’s need to draw, paint, sow..etc. Its a need to create, to give birth to an idea in the small chance that this small fragile idea with germinate, grow and spread.

Writing in many ways is a very personal way of tapping into one’s most inner thoughts. it’s a conduit between the unconscious and conscious then expressed out into the world via a medium such as blog or article.

I know I have a strong drive to help others. In any profession I have had, it has always evolved around helping. I have struggled to find the right profession though where I felt my natural talents were fully realized. I have always felt like I was going against the grain in any job I have taken.

This of course is my fault. I can’t really blame anyone else for the path and decisions I have made. Of course I can blame others, but that never has helped me better my life.

I struggle to listen to my inner voice and head in the direction it suggests that I take. Instead I listen to what society as a whole has laid out for me. Conventional, outdated ideas and paths that have never fit me.

I am coming to realize that I have never fully fit in with societal norms. Others as a whole seem content or completely oblivious of the child safety bumpers that society puts up to cage and strain creative thought.

American society and corporate loves to tout that they encourage creative thinking and new ideas, but for the most part I don’t believe this is true at all. They want blind obedience and will take a subservient employee over a creative outspoken individual.

It is becoming more apparent as I get older that I will never fit into corporate America. That what I can focus on is making my voice heard through writing and creating. If at all possible I can strive to develop skills where I can work for myself.

Circling back to my original topic, my message is to help shine a light on what others in society might not be fully aware of. To give voice to various ideas and opinions that might spark someone’s curiosity and make them think differently about a subject or trigger them to ponder a particular idea.

That is all I can hope for. To make some small change into this world instead of settling for just being another misshapen cog in the machine.