I was thinking about where in my career I currently am and how I got here. Am I lazy, or do I just not have the where-with-all to pick a career path and make it work?
I can say that I am not lazy. I am driven by my desire to become the best authentic self that I can be. Maybe this is why I feel consternation and anxiety when I try to force myself to learn a topic which I don’t feel is authentic to me. What I do has to in some way connect directly with my core.
But it can be said that you will not always have the luxury to choose what you need to learn to get the job done, however, I would preface this with, it is up to you to move your career in a direction where the daily work that you are tasked with is in direct alignment with who you are and your strengths. Not doing so will only bring great hardship and regret in your present life, and later years.
I don’t have an excuse, really. By staying in my current position, all I am accomplishing is wasting more time, and feeling a deep sense of loathing. The key for me is to find work where I am able to create. The path to that is not so clear cut, and to feel my way forward, I will need to take chances.
I currently am learning how to use Adobe illustrator and After Effects. I enjoy both these programs. The freedom to express myself using this medium of digital design and animation is refreshing. I still have anxiety, not knowing if the time I spent using the programs with bring any sort of real value to me.
I think the key here is to get my work out there on this or another blog, and show what I have learned. I have a need to share and teach, along with a desire to be competent in what I do. Learning a task is one thing, but the process of learning and applying the task is on a completely different plane.
The is the thing, you have to do the thing before you find out that it will work out for you. Many people with not take the leap of faith to try new things, because they don’t see a clear cut path.
It comes back to curiosity, courage, and having the sense to invest time in work and play where it brings you joy.
I still don’t know what my future career path will be. I want to continue to explore visual design, and creative thinking. I enjoy journaling and writing on this blog, and maybe having no reservations or high expectations of what this will bring is the best way to exploring what I want.