I have observed that I am not very decisive when making certain decisions, especially major life decisions. My career path, as I have already spoken about before is in total disarray, similar to a unkept garden, I will now need to do a lot of damage control to see if it can be salvaged.
The majority of people that I work with seem to have a natural purpose or drive to compete. I have never been one to be naturally competitive. I was always the one on the sidelines, or sitting alone stuck in my head. I’m a day dreamer.
It seems in American culture that indecisiveness and day dreaming is looked down upon. The majority of the population are fixed upon clamoring up some invisible corporate ladder. I honestly think I am geared differently, in relation to the majority.
I am interested in reading about philosophy, and I have tested out as INFJ, using the Myers Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI) test. Many people disregard this test as nonsense, but personally, I have found it to be very beneficial to me. It has helped me understand who I am, how and why I behave the way I do.
My female coworker is INTJ. We were attracted to each other almost immediately after we met. I’m not sure it’s love, but it feels like we have known each other all our lives. I am very comfortable being in her presence, and speaking openly with her.
So, getting back to the original point, if I am truly an outlier, how do I go about fitting in? I know I should be more decisive, and come with a solid strategy to what i want to achieve in the near future and long term. Not doing so will be detrimental to me and any close loved ones.
It just sucks feeling alone in a world where the majority seems to speak a different language.